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lost my ic
Saturday, July 23, 2011 @ 5:02 PM
The juxtaposition of what happened the past couple of days awes me
its so happenin in a way i thought being 19 i cld appreciate
but i guess not.
I choose to keep my composure
i choose not to be distressed, nonetheless mum keeps pushin me over the edge.
Went for nus registration. Was pretty fun, guess i was in the mood (:
So cld go with the flow and was genuinely happy and all.
Plus it was kind of cute to see bao and dm become friends. Wakakaks
even tho the bondin mostly happened as they shuaned me -.-
Then it was taw's bday. Which altho i wld say had an unpromising start(almost dint go,heh)had
an awesome end.
Got drunk for the first time. Mind, the word is drunk, not wasted. I dint puke or go all crazy. Wakakaks
i dont have a clear picture but im sonewhat aware of what happened and all.
That feeling, momentary bliss.. Its no wonder ppl get intoxicated all the time. Wakakas
it was like i was the happiest being on earth, i cld have be an amoeba for all i cared
altho, i lyked hw i was more at ease, while it made me mre vulnerable ans secure in a wierd way.
I said my insecurties, to my memory in a drunkard earnest manner. Not needy. Earnest. Wakakas
then suddenly the news came.
It almost feels unfair.
I had that one sudden moment of panic, then a guilty sense of relief washed over my constricted chest
but aywy, it happened pretty quickly
Rushed home
had hangover. Which was omg so horrible. I almost cldnt deal with it. Took me like 6hrs to recover, after havin bout 2hrs of fun -.-
then was whisked down to the funeral
whr it gave me the false sense of family that i always got when i met the rest
overnighting was pretty scary.
But i dint say i was afraid, lol, cux didi and mum were alr so frightened.
Otw way back had a foreboding feeling at the pit of my stomach.
Lost my ic. And yadayada
Was really unfair and mean and sacarstic to mum.
That was the first time i realized hw sour mum becomes, even tho it isnt thr first time.
I kept quiet as much as i cld.
Feelin bit light headed nw.
So aywy checked out everything.
Its goin to be a huge hassle and thr'll be a price to pay. Literally.
But. At least its not irreversible.
Haa. I still cracked after mum kept harpin on the 100bucks penalty.
Wtv it is, the horrible moment's gone and passed.
I shall soon restore that equilibrium. I hope.
Wildchildreamer
samantha
ps im vulgar, and have an accent when im drunk. Wakakaks, i actually think its pretty funny.
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